| I have an idea. You can help. |
[Dec. 30th, 2009|08:29 am] |
So my grandmother's funeral is today. I am pretty sure it's going to be a beautiful affair that will be marred by ugliness. So I've decided to remember her in my own way.
She likes elephants because they are good luck. So I got a miniature stuffed animal and I'll place it next to her before she's laid to rest. That's my goodbye. But I've decided to enact the spirit of her wishes even if I can't use her specific photos.
Meaning? I consider a lot of you my family. So if you feel inclined, I'd love to use the photos of people I care about and hang them up instead. If we've shared a hug, split a cigarette, had a moment together and you would like to help my project, please send me a photo of yourself that I could hang in my house. I promise that these photos will not be used for anything else. If you don't have the physical photo, you can email me a copy or just direct me to one from your profile that I could use.
Then I'll print them out and hang them up so that when people come to my house, they will be surrounded by the faces of people that care about me. I think the beauty of the internet is so powerful because some of you I haven't met yet and I still feel connected to you. But regardless, I'd appreciate the help and it would mean the world to me. I want to send personal notes to everyone thanking them but I'm not there yet. But know that I've read your words and they amount to more than I can properly express.
Thank you. |
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| Nothing to see here |
[Dec. 28th, 2009|08:40 pm] |
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1. Poor Charlie Sheen. He just needs to stop getting married, and invest money in a good therapist. He ain't right. When you make Denise Richards look like the SANE one? You're out of your mind for real.
2. And that airline bomber suspect, Umar Farouk Abdulmutallab? Did you hear that his dad is a Nigerian Banker? Since the bomber was unsuccessful, is it okay to make Nigerian Bank spam jokes yet? You know I got jokes...
3. It's too cold to leave the house anymore this week. BRRRR!
4. The Gene Simmons sex tape? NO comment. Other than ROTFLMAO and HELL NAW! |
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| My family |
[Dec. 28th, 2009|09:15 pm] |
Since I was younger, my grandmother has kept photos of our family on her walls. Some of these photos are older than all of us. It's like our personal family history. Hundreds and hundreds all over the place but my grandmother doesn't have one photo album. She doesn't believe in it. Says if you want to honor your family, you should put them in a place you can see. She told me several times growing up that she wants me to keep her photos when she dies. She told the rest of the family that she could trust me with them. Said she wanted me to do it only if I promised to hang them all around the house where people could see them. I took it really seriously and always promised.
She died yesterday.
The night my grandmother died, two of my aunts snuck into her home and stole all her pictures. ALL OF HER FUCKING PICTURES. Just threw them in a box and made off with them. I know for a fact that those pictures will sit in that box until they go to fucking Walmart and get some bullshit photobooks and keep them all neatly tucked away just like she said she didn't want to happen.
Why would you go directly against your dying mother's wish? Why would you hurt me? If you want the originals, then just give me copies of them! That's what I had planned all along. Give me something physical to remind me of my grandmother. It's not even just those two! This is just the last straw. My collective fucking family stole her money, her jewelry, her land, and everything of value in her house. There is nothing left. I'm so ashamed of them. I'm so furious. I can't even begin. It's like mourning the death of my family as well because I can't love anyone who would hurt me like that.
This is why real family is so important. Sometimes it's the people with their blood in your veins. Sometimes it's your friendships that become something more. You'll know them because they are the ones who love and understand you. They fucking keep promises. They aren't petty and selfish. They don't try to hurt you. And they are worth every moment you spend with them.
When I found out her photos were gone, I was sitting in my house and I felt real hate growing in my chest. Has you ever really hated someone? If you have, I don't have to explain. It feels like something is sitting inside your chest cavity and it's gnawing away at you. I wanted to hate them because in a sick way, it feels good. I wanted to hate them for hurting me and disrespecting her legacy. But a long time ago I promised myself I wouldn't hate anyone. It takes too much from me. It's not worth the price. So I sat there and I bawled my eyes out until I felt that toxic feeling was gone. Now, I'm going to live on. Because it's not about having the physical photos. It's about knowing I was loved and trusted enough to keep her memories alive. It's about being smart enough to know the difference between real family and blood relatives. And it's about keeping it moving.
R.I.P. |
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| PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT |
[Dec. 27th, 2009|05:16 pm] |
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I don't know if you like jazz, but if you do?
GET THE DEFINITIVE VINCE GUARALDI CD IMMEDIATELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The day I got it in the mail, I couldn't turn it off to go to bed because I couldn't stop listening to it. There's more to Vince than the Peanuts specials.
It's sprightly piano jazz. A few ballads, which are GORGEOUS, and it's all instrumental. The best tracks are the ones with Brazilian guitarist Bola Sete.
BEG, BORROW OR STEAL THIS RELEASE!
My other favorite soundtrack composer was Henry Mancini before I really started listening to Guaraldi's stuff in my 20s. |
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| Back Home |
[Dec. 26th, 2009|03:38 pm] |
So I realized that I missed LJ very much. I still read journals but fill funny posting in my own. I guess it's becuase this journal has been so abandoned that I think no one is reading becuase most of my former friends seemed to have abandoned their journals too. Facebook was fun but it was as fulfilling as candy. You tire of it and after eating so much decide you're hungry for more. There's nothing like reading people's thoughts on a page.
So anyway, I'm back and looking for new friends and saying hey to my old ones. And uh yeah, I'm still as crazy as ever but having so much more fun this time!!!! |
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| Ugh |
[Dec. 24th, 2009|01:50 am] |
I really hate how, as you grow older, things your elder did or said when you were younger that made no sense reveal themselves in sense.
After we lost our home, we had to live with my great-grandmother. I was not thrilled about this as, well, I carried big beef with her over the way she treated my grandma/mama -- especially since she was not going to be angry about it herself. One day, I was hungry and went into her fridge to get something out. She did not like this -- she felt like we were going to eat her out of house and home I guess. Anyway, as I was rifling, she came out of the bathroom in nothing but her underwear and the most perturbed look on her face. I think we had some words, but what I remember most clearly were her low, flat breasts and thinking she was certifiable.
Tonight, I am listening to the sounds of my roommate, Zeke, and his friends. They are being hyenas in the other room. Flicking something (bottle caps?), giggling, whispering. I wanted to walk out there and demand to know what was going on, but I could only let myself be seen and share a small smile with Zeke I didn't mean.
So, sorry Arlene McRae, I owe you one. |
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| Quote of the Day.... lololol |
[Dec. 23rd, 2009|01:51 pm] |
Quote of the Day: on my facebook page...
"you're just mad because in the hogwarts world I'm Harry and you're Ron. get over it." |
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| Because an awful lot of us are wondering |
[Dec. 21st, 2009|07:14 pm] |
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What the rules are for an Amber Alert? Turns out it's different for every state.
To activate the AMBER Alert Notification Plan in Illinois, law enforcement agencies must ensure the following criteria are met:
1. Law enforcement must confirm a child has been abducted.
2. The child must be under the age of 16 or have a proven mental or physical disability.
3. Law enforcement must believe the child is in danger of serious bodily harm or death.
4. There is enough descriptive information about the child, abductor, and/or suspect’s vehicle to believe an immediate broadcast alert will help.
http://www.amberillinois.org
I think there needs to be something in place for missing kids where abduction cannot be proven immediately. |
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| Help us bring Brianna home |
[Dec. 21st, 2009|08:37 am] |
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This is ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) karnythia's son's cousin. She may have run away, but we don't know that for sure. The police are treating her as a runaway so there is no Amber Alert. If you have seen this girl and have any information please contact the Chicago police at (312)747-8274. Or if you are just willing to spread the link, please feel free to do so. She's a kid and we're worried about her. Thank you.
http://karnythia.livejournal.com/1448046.html
She has been found. Thanks. |
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| It ain't RIIIIGHT! |
[Dec. 19th, 2009|11:21 am] |
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So, ABBA gets into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame but KISS doesn't?
KISS, who is arguably the most influential rock band of the 70s? And from a marketing perspective, the most important post-Beatles rock band?
I love ABBA, but they do NOT rock. Neither does Madonna, and she certainly has NO business going in before KISS. Neither does MetallicA, who certainly DOES rock as #1 of the Big Four Thrash Bands and was influenced by KISS and Aerosmith as well as Black Sabbath and Led Zeppelin.
Genesis gets in but Rush doesn't? WTF? If there's an alleged prog-rock bias at work against artists at the RRHOF, why does Genesis get in? I think they're at least as prog as Rush (though I don't see Rush as prog AT.ALL.), in the Peter Gabriel years anyway. I guess once Genesis went A/C, that was okay for the Hall voters.
I ain't never going to the hall in Cleveland until KISS gets in. KISS *IS* ROCK AND ROLL. |
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| Idle minds... |
[Dec. 18th, 2009|08:46 pm] |
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I was on Hugh Grant's Wikipedia page, for no reason at all, when I ran across the following:
In the 2006 CBS TV series Love Monkey, the character called Shooter (Larenz Tate) explained the phenomenon of male discontent as "Grant's Law." Referring to Hugh Grant, he said that the star "had the hottest, sexiest and most beautiful woman waiting for him at home. And what does Hugh do? He picks up a cut-rate whore on Hollywood Boulevard." This, he believed, showed that, "We, as men, can never be satisfied."
Two things.
1. I don't know HOW I missed Larenz Tate in a TV show!
2. Grant's Law? See also, Cheetah Woods. That explains EVERYTHING. |
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